Sunday, September 6, 2015

What's in the age.

So, funny story, a friend of mine told me that when she goggle'd my name, a popular search, even before 'Alicia Souza amazon' was 'Alicia Souza age'. I laughed. (and secretly checked…and it's true!!) So, that's what people want to know!

In short, as of date, I am 28 years old. It's (WAYYY) older than I feel but as wise as I've ever been.
Age can be scary. When I was a teenager, I imagined myself at this age a whole lot different. Infact my thoughts of me were always the most 'normal'. I imagined that by now I would probably be on my way to becoming a mother, well settled in a 9-5 job and being happy. When I think of that now, I think I've overshot by a mile. Well, I am a mother, though to a furry child, I work in a 24 hour job (if you consider sleep as working too) and I'm beyond happy. Happier than I've ever been and the happiest I could ever imagine. In fact I scare myself with the happy bit.

Settled? probably not.. but it's the best. When I think of the word 'settled', I imagine mundane, which is what I think it means. A life with not too many up and downs and no real surprises. The kind I imagined I wanted when I was young. It seemed safe and being brought up in Abu Dhabi, that's the only life I'd seen. Now I can't imagine being 'settled' even if I did raise a family (beyond furries --haha furries just autocorrected to curries…well they'd be little curries then). A life being lived and not on autopilot. It makes me worried, keeps me busy and oh so happy.

Age, so funny! Ageing, rather!
One day I'm going to feel old and wise, but for now I'll just settle with 'young (at heart) and a little silly'. It will do for now.


  1. Hey Alicia,
    a big gratitude to you, for inspiring in a big way through your little efforts.
    your words are like a warm sunshine peeping in through cracks of age.your happiness just brightens everything around, it surely does. only a happy soul like you can create so much happiness for the world around. thank you for reaffirming my faith, age is what others keep record of, we shall just live :) :)
    alicia you are a twinkling star.
    after years of admiring you silently, here i write to you today.

    1. Your comment made my day! the biggest ever hug to you :) :)

  2. Dear Alicia!
    I'm so glad you wrote this. Reading this is the best thing I did today. I've moved to Bangalore too and was apprehensive of getting settled soon. Inspired from you..I think I'm hungry for more surprises.
    I love you!!!
    Amrit Sidhu